My Perfectly Imperfect World: Are you a AM or a WANNA BE?

When I started this blog back in November I wrote an About Me page. I didn't get it on the blog until last week (because I just figured out how!) I re read it and published it. Very proud of myself. ;)

In one of the lines about me I stated "I'm a wanna be photographer, runner, cowgirl and writer... and was a wanna be blogger.... until now." When I wrote that statement I didn't give it much thought. I am a wanna be all those things. But for some reason today it hit me. I will 37 years old in a few weeks and I am still a wanna be. It almost made me cry. I began to think....

I know what I want, I know where I want to go, what's stopping me?

When am I going to fulfill these dreams? When is the right time for me to be who I want to be? When will I stop making excuses? When will I make it a priority? When will I find the time? When will I stop giving up on my dreams? If not now then when?

And then I made a decision.

When needs to change to NOW. I am going to change each one of those wanna be's to an I AM.

I already bought the boots and planted the garden! ;)

I started this blog almost as a dare to myself. I had thought about it for years... and then one day I realized I could go my whole life wondering if I could, wishing I had the guts to take that first step. Having this blog has been such a wonderful, albeit at times, frustrating, overwhelming experience for me. I have learned so much. I'm not a big computer person so my trial and error has taught me more than I had imagined. I still have so much learning to go. I am slowly working up towards telling people I actually know in person I have a blog. The fear of them hearing and seeing inside my head and world is scaring me a little less each day. I have more people looking at my blog each day than I ever imagined.

I guess, I am at a point in my life where being afraid, embarrassed or intimidated is no longer an option.